I’m the only person in the world who gets the honor of being the June 2020 Playmate, and that’s special. This is the first time I’ve ever posed nude, but I find that doing anything for the first time is exciting, and I like to live life with no regrets!
“Alicia Loraina Olivas, you’re amazing.”
I was at a shoot the other day and had to stop, look in the mirror and remind myself of this fact. For most of my life I’ve been on a journey to find peace with who I am. I’m in an amazing place now, but it hasn’t been easy.
Growing up, I got picked on a lot for being overweight. I would come home from school and cry because I wanted to be skinny so I could fit in with everyone else. In middle school I swung between wearing shirt girdles and eating my younger sister’s birthday cake out of the trash. Eventually I thought, Okay, girlfriend, something’s got to change; you can’t keep living your life like this. The pressure of wanting to fit in, to be liked and wanted, was just too much.
When I changed schools halfway through middle school, I began to let my personality shine through. I made some friends and gradually realized my weight didn’t matter to anyone. When I turned 16 I started making healthier lifestyle decisions—but not because I wanted to fit in or lose weight. Being unhealthy made me depressed, and changing my lifestyle helped me find confidence and happiness. It finally clicked: It was never about getting other people to like me; it was always about me loving myself.
